The good: Chris' insurance will cover some aspects of IVF. They will cover "Four Egg Retrievals and Four Embryo Transfers" per lifetime. Unfortunately, I have already used two of these four this year and, eventhough, I'm with a different insurance provider now, it still counts against our four attempts.
The bad: We tried one last "hail mary" cycle before turning to IVF#3. It was an IUI with injectibles (something we've never tried before). I responded really well to the meds and ended up with three follies all measuring at 16mm (two on the left and one on the right).
For some silly reason, I got my hopes up that things would work out. I thought maybe knowing how badly I did not want to have to go through a third round of 3 shots in the belly a day, an inch and a half needle in my butt every night, visits to the doc and labwork multiple times a week, surgery to remove eggs from my ovaries, indescribable emotional stress and pain, not to mention the financial burden would make a difference.... unfortunately, it didn't matter and we received another BFN.
The angry: So, now we wait until Chris' insurance kicks in until we try again.... You'd think after 28 months of waiting I'd be comfortable with it..... Perhaps if I was waiting for something like a job promotion or a new car or a new house, I could be comfortable.... Waiting for a human being to complete our family and to allow me the chance to do what I was put on the earth to do- become a mother- now that's a different story. And anyone who says they could wait patiently for years on end has clearly never felt the pain and emptiness of infertility before... and I hope to god they never do.
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